Wander Bay

Life wasn't nice to me lately. There were problems at work, diseases hounding in on me, people had begun to become shady and annoying, the world was not making sense at all and I was pushed into all of it, at once. There were occasions when all I wanted to do was run away from the maddening crowd and vexing world into a safe zone, home, a hearth and absorb and endorse silence.  My never- ending chest congestion was taking a toll on my appetite, I began eating erroneously, not eating at all sometimes, stopped going to swim or jog which I used to swear by before, I stopped music in my life, stopped traveling, quit reading and tore a few precious books in utter rage at myself. I began distancing from my own folks who I value the most, although they never let me go. The brain truly was crazy working up there. Nothing was helping me and I desperately wanted to end that phase. That phase truly sucked. There were no interventions or escapades. I just had to deal with it. But one day...

Why did you leave me just like that? I wanted to meet you, see you and learn your Love. You were just there but now so you are gone; I wished I saw you breathing and alive. Just as my fingers tap my collarbones, And I keep wishing that the moments came back when your love treaded time and tide, seeping into lives and touched ‘em with your warm soul. Your smile and your strength that drove all of us, But just withered like pollens into the air; yet I’m hopeful for the days later where your passion blooms into golden sunflowers. The way you wrote; I was mesmerized Your pains went unnoticed: the world is faulty I feel nice reading through your words, suffused with swollen memories; sure guilty. Bestow on me oh lovable, the air you carried, I’m just a meager awed at your stoic and strength; I feel my heart pounding in your memory, And the pang of loss that brings me to agony.